Oh. My. God... Sorry, haven't written in forever, been crazy around home. Mom is divorcing Dad!! Jake still loves me!!! Michael was a douche!!! Ugh. I won't be able to catch you up all the way, but I'll do my best, cause I'm home sick with nothing much else to do.
Okay, first with mom and dad. She finally got sick of him being such a control freak, and has moved into our basement. With me. Its complicated, and I don't really want to write about it, sorry...
Second. Jake!!! Okay, so I've gotten really close with a girl named Alissa. She's undead, too. Did I mention Alex has been ignoring me? Well... that's a whole nother drama. Back to Jake. Alissa knew how much I've been missing him, and she arranged to meet him at the mall last Saturday. I was celebrating my birthday with a couple of friends that I've made at school, and we were sitting at a pizza joint when she goes, "Dude, Jake's at the mall, but he's only got twenty minutes left to be there!"
At first, I didn't want to run into him, but then I said, "Lets meet him there." We got into my car (Yep, got my own now!!) and drove towards the mall. I texted him, saying "Hey, we're at the mall. Where are you?"
He said, "Sorry, just left, and I just pulled onto 75"
I sighed, "He's already gone, Lissa."
"Well, lets go in anyways. I wanna hit Sephora." She doesn't usually like it, so I thought that was a little strange, but I shrugged it off.
We walked into the mall, and a modeling company for the undead was holding auditions, so I dragged them over there. We signed up, and Lissa got a phone call. She said "No, we're right outside of Sephora."
When I asked if it was Jake, she looked surprised and said, "No, it was my mom. She's bored so she came to the mall."
I turned around to look in Sephora, and I did a double take. JAKE WAS WALKING OUT OF SEPHORA TOWARDS US!!! I screamed, "HOLY CRAP!!"and turned to Lissa. "YOU PLANNED THIS, DIDN'T YOU?!??" You're probably wondering why this was such a big deal. Well, after we'd broken up, he'd basically told me that he didn't want to be with me, because I was too young. We've talked a little since then, and he's always acted like he didn't give a donkey's butt crack about me anymore. Well, of course I've loved him this entire time. So, granted, I was mildly freaked out.
He grinned and looked at me, casually checking me out. I blushed and pulled the neckline of my dress up. Lissa had said, "Why don't we get a little dressed up, after all, it's your birthday?" So, I was wearing a white, knee length dress with a black cardi and flipflops. There. I was dressed up.
He had on a black t-shirt with the red Puma logo on it, and black cargo pants. He had on combat boots... Go figure. I said, "Hi."
We all talked for a little bit, me getting increasingly flustered the entire time. I dragged Lissa away from everyone else and gave her a little talking to about how much I was going to kill her if she ever did anything like that again.
Eventually, it wound up being just me and Jake. We were standing by the rail on the top floor of the mall, over by Belk. After a little while, he said, "You know, I never stopped loving you."
I nearly cried. "Jake, do you think I don't like you anymore?"
He replied, voice steeled, "It doesn't seem like you care at all."
"Well, things aren't always how they seem." I wanted to hug him, to have him hold me the way he had before. I wanted to kiss him, to tell him that I loved him and everything would be alright. But I couldn't. I didn't know how to. I didn't know how things could go back to the way they were.
He solved it for me. "Look, Sammi, I have to go. Sorry. Do you want to walk with me to the food court?"
I felt my heart ripping all over again. Six months ago, I'd held his hand. Six months ago, I'd found out he'd cheated on me after getting drunk. Six months ago, my heart had broken into pieces. Now, I was about to lose him all over again, and I didn't know when I'd see him again.
As we walked over to the food court, he slipped his arm around my waist. I looked up at him, wondering what he was thinking, and then, I slipped mine back around his. He kept looking straight ahead, and I'd glance up at him every once in a while. He finally said, with a laugh, "Sammi, you're giving me that look again."
I laughed nervously. "What look?"
"The look you've only given me once before, when we-"
"Oh, that look? Oh, shut up. I can't help it." I looked up at him again, couldn't help myself. He checked his phone.
"Oh, look at that. I have a few extra minutes. I'll walk you back to your friends."
I guess I kept giving him the look, because when we got halfway to the Belk again, he looked down at me, pulled me into his arms, looked at me, and we kissed. Ohmygosh it was amazing. Told me everything I needed to know, in those five seconds, I was his again. It wasn't a French, wasn't invasive, wasn't anything that anyone except me would consider special. It told me how much he'd missed me, how much he still cared, what he'd do to be with me again.
After what felt like an hour, but I know wasn't even a minute, he pulled away. I looked at him, longing for him. He said, "Well, Sammi, I have to go. I'll see you around sometime, okay?"
"I never want to leave you again, Jake."
"I never want you to. But I have to go. I'll text you, okay?"
"Yeah." As soon as he'd left my sight, I crumpled into one of the chairs in Belk. I had so much going through me, so many emotions. I didn't know what to do with it all. Still don't. Well, I've got to go, I have makeup work to do. I'll try to write more often, and keep you guys updated on Jake and me.
